I hope the best for you, and I hope you realize that trying to kill somebody else’s happiness will only take away your own in the end. That’s why I’m done listening and watching and waiting for a ghost.
Tears fall, and they evaporate like salt into the air. The air is shared by everyone so I hope everybody knows I cried for you. I realize that some people will not accept me, and judge me, but what can I do? Smile! I smile because, in the end, I am who I am, nothing more, nothing less. I can’t change myself to make you happy, I will always just be me. And that’s where I leave it.
Sometimes, you love somebody so much, that you’d die for them before you even tell them you love them.
“He loved her and she wouldn’t leave his husband. They went on a hunt for him and found that he hung himself in the well. The kids loved him, couldn’t wait to see him smiling. But that day, he knew he couldn’t pretend to smile anymore and he took the rope, let go and fell.”
I’ll change myself to make myself happy, because in the end, I’m the only one even remotely capable of that. Depending on you to make me smile is like depending on my mom not to forget her coffee or spill it every morning. Things like that just don’t get better with age. The older I get, the less smiling I’ll do because the older I get, I realize I’m not like you. I’m just the product of a fucked up world. The product of everything I’ve ever known and seen.
I’m blessed because God was part of that world I grew up in. Blessed to know He does love when others hate. And that’s all I can hope for in the end.
I remember a girl I used to know on Myspace. She hung herself in the closet because her dad wouldn’t let her see the boy she loved. He dad found her dead in the closet, and he was only five minutes late. He blamed himself, I think. She was beautiful, and nobody saw the pain in her eyes in her pictures. She, hung herself in the closet “probably by accident” they said.
Love takes lives everyday, and we wonder why we throw it away.
Sometimes you realize, a place would be better off without you. So you withdraw from that place, eventually, you withdraw from yourself. Eventually, you withdraw from your soul, and you become one of the others, a soulless nothing, just waiting to die.